Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Spark of hope.

We receive the healing Lord.  Let it come!

Sept. 30, 2015

At home. Bambine sleeping next to me, Joseph the sweet snookee wook kitty between us.

Keep reading or skip to the end, it's good stuff!!

Was feeling beat up & down today, because of the Dr.s and their WCS ( worst case scenario) mantra.  Kinda started to believe them.  They were crushing my mustard seed.  

Yesterday it was "End of life" planning, Hospice options & DNR orders (do not resuscitate) chit chat, with the Doc, the hospice Doc & case worker & her day nurse.  And not even a cup of tea & bickies provided.  How rather odd. Not very sporting at all. Bad show.  

Today it was a reiteration there of, one on one with the Dr. In the hallway outside her room. "Doc, did you say "unplug her fluids and let "nature" take over??"  "Isn't this like dropping her off in the desert???"  Sanctioned Euthenasia?  Sorry but I couldn't live with that. If God's going to take her, He will need to stop her & take her while connected to fluids.  "It would only be 3 days and she's be gone". Ah, no. 

So that's how serious it is, at least to the Dr.s.  This is their end game and they're ready to play their last card. 

MRI's show cancer in the skull & 2 stokes on the brain.  One in the Thalymus-connection from brain to body, & the other in the Right Occipital Lobe - speech & movement of the left arm. 
"She probably won't be able to communicate ever again". Dr. No. 

Sorry but last night she was pulling her blanket off with her left arm.  

Tonight she needed to "go to the bathroom" as she stated a few times (communication), and started to get out of bed.  I told her "you've got a bed pan you can go now, you don't have to get up." So she did!  Hmmm. Felt like interaction. 

About 10 mins before I headed home to relieve Grandma, OH, I didn't mention that Grandma arrived on Friday to help out. She didn't expect to walk into this the day after she arrived, but she's been great helping with Bambine, cooking meals, and praying over her beloved daughter. Nice to have someone to talk to also. 

Ok, ready for something good!!???

So, about 10 mins before I headed home from the hospital to relieve Grandma, a certain young lady opens her bright eyes with properly dilated pupils (for the first time in days) and looks right at me.  I say, "Hi" and she says "Hi" and I just about fell out of the chair.  A bolt of excitement went through me. 

Then she says my nickname which is "Aloysius,"  not an easy name to say. 

I am rather encouraged, as in ready to do a cartwheel encouraged!!!

Very exciting actually!!!

I'm feeling very charged up & excited at what the Lord is going to do. No sadness here. Please be excited with me!!!

GOOD Night!!!!





Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Part 2

11:35 pm, Sept. 29

Wife's bedside
, Palm Bay Hospital

She's STILL sleeping...  So you've hopefully seen Christine's Update in the previous blog...

She hasn't really come back to us much, a bit of mumbling tonight needing pain meds, but we're praying for a miracle...

She's very week from a weak of not eating well, nausea, vomiting, and high calcium levels.

I have to say, sharing my prayer requests on Facebook, I've been really humbled by the range of friends I've known from all through my life, from pre-High School days to now and everyone in between, who have reached across time, and come to stand next to us in prayer as if we'd just seen each other yesterday.  Thank you dear friends!  You had made, and have made my & our lives richer!!!!!!

Quick History of Paul & Christine:
We met in church 18 years ago, really liked each other.... I waited a week too long to ask her out, another dude moved in, dated her for 5 months then broke it off & bagged on her... Too Emotional (turns out during that time a co-worker was stealing her commissions & the management wouldn't fix it), a good reason to be emotional, and then the gossip train started... blah, blah, blah..  and I was stupid enough to listen to the nay sayers...

Fast forward to 2009, Miss Emotional wants to be friends on Facebook.  Being the generous kind hearted type, I let her be my friend... :0  Early 2010 she want's to intro me to a friend, "Minding her own business" she calls it later.  Since I was President of the (not so) Dame-less & Desperate Society, and a customer, I said sure.  Well, she wasn't interested...  Christine said, "Maybe I should be...?"  At that moment I heard the scoffers say "run" and the Holy Spirit say, "Just give it a try"  I did like seeing her pictures on FB after all.  She had always been very pretty..."too bad she's so emotional."  

So deferring to & following the wisdom of the HS, we met a few weeks later in Orlando (I was living in California) and had a nice time, so much so, we got together the next night for dinner...  A few visits back and forth across the country, and I proposed Sept. 18th, 2010 on a beach in St. Augustine.  She said yes!

December 4, 2010 was a very, very special day, as we united as Husband and Wife.  Thank you friends for making that day so special.

Part 2

March & April, 2015 she had been having pretty serious arm & back pain that 2 Chiropractors tried to address, but nothing worked.  

April 16 I get a text asking me to come home.  She had lifted our little guy out of his walker and her back went out. She could barley get him into the house.

April 20 We have a family photo shoot, she's doing OK, but hard to sit on the blanket for a photo.

April 27 Her Birthday.  Spent it on the living room couch in pain.  We're thinking a herniated disk.

April 30 So much pain, decide to go to the ER.  Have to wait 3 hours to get her in, sitting there in pain...  They run a whole bunch of tests, Blood, Ultrasound, high calcium levels...

May 4  Phone call from the Oncologist.  Metastatic Breast Cancer that's spread...


OK, will have to continue in Part 3.  Time to sleep for me...



Folks have asked if there's a way to give online...  Here's a link.  Thanks so much.    

Christine Update Sept. 29, 2015 3:14pm

So, had a chat with the Doctors this morning.  Did I mention they go with the worst case scenario?  Well they are...

MRI test this morning, results came back showing cancer now in the skull, and 2 stroke sites in her brain...  which might explain the lack of communication & consciousness...

So, as I said 5 months again, this is Bad.... It's actually badder.... Is that a word?  It's always been in the Lord's hands, its just more acute now...

Isaiah 43:25New International Version (NIV)

25 “I, even I, am he who blots out
    your transgressions, for my own sake,
    and remembers your sins no more.
26 Review the past for me,
    let us argue the matter together;
    state the case for your innocence.

So I stated my case this morning to the Lord, on the way to the hospital.  Reminding Him of His promises in His Word...  I told Him about all you Saints around the world praying for my sweet bride!  I told Him it's time for Him to show His power!  That she will be a great testifier of His healing power, and I'll make sure she spreads that word whether she likes it or not...  :)

I'm not giving up, even though others are.  God can still heal her.  While there is breath in her lungs he can still touch her,  the Great I AM who "heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit." Psalm 103


Praise the Lord, my soul,
    and forget not all his benefits—
who forgives all your sins
    and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit  Psalm 103

So please don't give up either.  Keep praying & believing for that Miracle.  This has always been a case of the Lord stepping in to heal.


Thanks for all your support & kind words, although I'd prefer not to hear;  "I'm so sorry...  You've been a good husband, Keep the faith, Stay strong..." Yo yo.... sup.  


Don't give up until she's healed or the Lord calls her home!!!


How bout:  "Praying for you guys" ( and do it), "Believing and praying for a miracle", "Standing with you!"  Or be creative AND positive!

Thank you Saints for standing with us!

P, C, & E.

Photo taken August 21, 2015... One month ago...

Monday, September 28, 2015

Now & Then

12:07 am, Sept. 29

Wife's bedside, Palm Bay Hospital

She's sleeping, I'm in & out... trying to get this written.  When she does "wake up" she's not coherent, non communicative...  Keeps telling me...., well, I'd like to think she's talking to me... "Don't touch it..." over and over...

The Doctors are telling me she's "very sick," "doesn't look good.."

Well, they would say that, they have to go worst case scenario...  But haven't they heard of healing???  Do they know the God of the Universe?  I'm praying that they get a personal introduction to his healing power!

So how did we end up here...  We were having conversations Saturday morning...  Yes she was in pain, but she was quite "with it" and even made a joke or two...

But she also told me "I can't have another day like yesterday... I need some relief"

Let's jump back 2 weeks....  Hip Pain starts again...  Hospital for pain meds...

4 weeks back... Hospital for rib pain - 2 cracked ribs..

5 weeks back, feeling great, walking without the walker... Pulled weeds in the garden, felt great!

5+ months..  Arm pain, back pain and then the back went out...


So now my laptop battery is dying... time to publish this and add to it next time.